Hearts, flowers, candy...
Red, pink, white...
Rinse, lather, repeat....
...It all starts to sound and look the same after awhile.
As a kid, Valentine's Day is exciting because you get to make handmade cards for your friends at school, have parties with all kinds of treats that your mom won't let you eat at 10am at home, and find out if that boy you like has a crush on you. As you get older, you become more aware of the fact that Valentine's Day is more about buying stuff than showing love. It's my personal opinion that if you can tell someone you love them 365 days out of the year, why do you need to have one specific day that's dedicated to that? So you don't look like a goober by telling someone how you actually feel? Trust me on this, take that leap any other day of the year...she won't think you're ridiculous!
I like Valentine's Day because I have a daughter who likes Valentine's Day. That's about the extent of it. If I'm dating someone, I don't want to feel the pressure of having to pick out something to buy them. Lets go out to dinner together or lets have a kid-date where we can take the kid with us and everyone can be happy.
Every year previous to this one I would dread this "holiday" if I wasn't dating someone. This year is a little different. It's been almost 5 months since I broke up with my ex and trust me when I say that February wasn't a month I was looking forward to. The 15th (tomorrow) would be our 2 year anniversary and with V-day being the day before that, I just KNEW I was going to sit and be a wreck all day. That was 5 months ago. Fast forward to...well, right now...
There is SO much more that is going on in my head right now but most importantly, I'm happy being by myself. I don't particularly care that I don't have a significant other to share today with because I have my daughter. My cousin is even visiting from NJ so I'm very much looking forward to seeing her today and going to dinner this evening. I have these amazing friends that put up with me day in and day out that I just love to the end of the earth because you KNOW they're good people to the core. I'm happy, I'm healthy, and I'm generally loving my life every single day.
There are definitely times when it would be awesome to sit and be able to text someone about insignificant details from my day or have someone that I knew was my other half or to spend weekends with but wishing for those times have become far and few between and for that, I'm SO thankful. When I think about a future relationship I may have, I don't think about my ex because I know that my next relationship will be different. There will be a totally different type of person that I'm with because I deem it so. I've made the positive changes that I needed to in order to break the cycle of dating the same type of person. So, for now, I'm content to just sit and wait for that person to be put in front of me when it's time. I don't feel the need to go on a hunt for him because I'm too excited to see what's in store for me on a day to day basis.
On that note, despite recovering from having my bicep muscle re-anchored, a bone shaved off in the top of my shoulder, and a rotator cuff tear repaired, I'm happy to say that February has started off and continues to show the promise of finishing out as a wonderful, busy, month. With or without a Valentine, 2015 is sure looking good.
So here's to actually celebrating the things that make you happy on a daily basis and finding that you don't NEED to have anyone but yourself, your family, & your close friends to make you smile. Cheers.
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