Well, I said I wasn't going to get back online tonight but here I am, 10:30pm.
I just wanted to write a bit before heading to bed. I'm beat. Today was, all in all, productive. I'm in much better spirits this evening thanks to talking things out with some friends, deep breathing...all that. I've set some goals that I'm looking to work towards and am excited about them - physical goals that I think will help me attain better mental clarity.
I'm going to attend Tai Chi classes - try them out, see how it goes. Apparently more highly recommended than yoga for a clear mind.
Krav Maga or perhaps kick boxing - calling tomorrow to find out about a beginner class. I really think that combined with my training & running this will help me reach a physical peak I've been looking for and help me channel the frustration, anger, & jealousy I'm feeling. Hopefully I will be able to rid myself of those & move on to becoming a stronger person.
It's not a physical goal but it is something I'm doing further research on: moving when my lease it up. I had something lined up but I'm actually wanting to research a different area for various reasons that I think might be more of a benefit to both me and my daughter. It's north of where I live now which means a bit more cold weather but hey, we're survivors :)
I meant to write a bit on something a dear friend told me earlier today when I met with her. She's someone who I've known since my first year in high school and who I respect more than I could ever express. I've seen her fight to be the person she's grown in to, I've seen her go through hell and back in her teenage years, and I've seen her walk away from a person she loved with all her heart because she knew he wasn't good for her & her family. I truly look up to her for working her ass off to be where she is and today she told me that she thinks I will be able to look back on this blog and I'll be able to think "those things I wrote about that were such a huge deal then, don't seem so huge now". THAT is something I look forward to and I something that I really hope will happen (sooner rather than later). My dear friend, I NEEDED to hear those words today and you know who you are (and I know you'll read this)...I LOVE YOU to the moon & back for being one of the very few people that has stuck with me through all the crap in my life & who has always encouraged the things that people thought were weird or quirky. You've never faltered in who you know you are and I have SO much respect for you for that. You inspire me to be a stronger person. <3
On that note, I shall leave this until tomorrow while I depart for the world of dreaming. Here's to a peaceful nights rest. Cheers.
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