So, the continuation of yesterday's post was that my ex wouldn't leave my f**king brain all day. Do you have any idea how irritating that is? I suppose it's because I was wondering where he was, what he was doing, etc. bc of the game. Same w/the morning when I woke up. I'm not upset over it, just irritated and my heart doesn't hurt but it's very aggravated with impatience. I truly want to get through a full day without thinking about what he's doing.
I did stay extremely busy yesterday which was good. Munchkin had karate practice because of her upcoming graduation, we ran errands, and then relaxed for about an hour before joining some friends for dinner. Dinner was extremely fun and it was just us girls so it was really great to just kick back and relax, laugh, etc. I slept REALLY well last night which I'm so thankful for.
Today my goal is to stay off the social media, focus on what needs to get done, & rock it out. Also thinking about going ice skating in a few hours and we have a Birthday party as well this afternoon. With any luck, the day will fly by and my brain will leave me in peace!
I talked to my head doc the other day about starting to date again because it seems that people everywhere think you need to jump from one relationship to the next (apparently my ex thinks the same thing). From time to time I also think it would be a great distraction and would help me move on. However, I'm not ready for another let down and I certainly don't want to use anybody as a rebound because that's just not acceptable. I have someone that I like but thats where it's going to stay for now and I see it being more beneficial to develop that friendship first. Besides, moving in the summer will present unforeseen opportunities and I don't want to tie those down at the moment. Making myself a better, stronger person is what's going to count for the most right now and concentrating on only things that are beneficial to me is what matters.
So, lets start the day. Meditation first. Then food. Then shower. Then whatever else the universe wants to bring my way. "Trust that the universe is working FOR you and WITH you." (Sanaya Roman) Cheers.
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