Today has definitely been bearable. I woke up 30 minutes before my alarm went off (hey, 5:15am how's it going?) but was in a good mood, energetic, etc. You know how sometimes it's just the little things in life that get to you and you eventually want to scream because things build up and build up?
That was my morning.
My nose ring somehow slipped out during the night and closed partially up so I had to take the time to re-pierce it this morning. Didn't have time for breakfast because I wanted to make sure my daughter was on time for school.
Extremely slow drivers.
Got a really large splinter in the palm of my hand.
You know, just little things that have tried to frustrate me all day. I've been pretty good about just blowing that stuff off though and being productive. However, I was wrapping some Christmas gifts earlier & I opened 2 boxes that had come in the mail about a week ago. I didn't open them then because I thought they were just stuff I had ordered for Christmas & I wasn't ready to wrap anything yet so I left them alone. Turns out, they were gifts from the watch Boutique where my ex and I got our matching watches in the summer. Heeeeey, thanks for kicking me in the gut. The boxes were gorgeous, the gifts were really nice...and there were 2. SIGH. Okay...so let me take a second and really just chill out because although I wasn't UPSET, I felt my blood pressure go up quickly.
It has taken HOURS for me to mellow out from that. HOURS for the anger to dissipate. If I step back and look at the situation, I know I'm not angry at the boutique for sending the gifts. It was actually a really thoughtful gesture and they most certainly wouldn't know that my ex is a...well, there's too many words to choose from that I'm feeling right now so insert whichever one comes to mind first. They definitely would have no way of knowing we aren't together anymore. So where's the anger coming from? Mmm...I'd say it's stemming from having the whole situation brought to the surface again when I was feeling okay. I actually had a clear head & was focused on what needed to get done & BAM! Out of nowhere hit by such randomness.
Alas, I'm thankful that 35 minutes later I had to be a Krav class because that helped a very small amount to re-focus my thoughts and release some frustration. Surprisingly, I'm feeling pretty chilled out now but since I have to go out later, I'll probably go put in a couple miles at the gym.
I just think that life tends to have a way of throwing you off but it might be for the sole purpose of making you stop & make sure you've got yourself together. It's like saying "Hey, I know you think you're doing okay but you need to hang on for a sec and really make sure you're super focused because if you don't, anything can mess with your head and throw you off". No kidding. Point taken.
So, I've relaxed for a little bit of time & have to finish cleaning my house and wrapping gifts. And I need to pack because our vacation is only a couple days away!!!
So here's to life's little annoyances that really can teach us larger lessons if we stop to figure them out. And here's to some sand & sun as a cure all! Cheers!
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