Let's start this off by really just saying that today hasn't been horrible AT ALL. Not even bad! So...WOOHOO for that. The worst part of today has been dealing with an oncoming sore throat but you know, things could be a lot worse. So bring it on.
I ran this morning, had physical therapy, ran some errands...normal day for me.
I'm briefly, as in, in 1 sentence going to touch on the only thing that really threw me off guard today and that's the fact that as I pulled into the parking lot for PT, I looked over at the car next to me and there was a guy in the seat in his Army uniform. I'm SO used to seeing it on my ex that it just kind of took me off guard. Didn't upset me...just one of those things where you stop for a second and go "whoa". Okay...moving on.
I want to write about KNOWING someone this evening. But I'm going to begin what I want to say, with a very brief story because it precedes what happened to me today. About a year ago, the ex was away on a business trip. The afternoon of the day he left, I went to his house to check his mail and I found his garage door open and his house broken in to. A few things were stolen and the police took normal info, etc. We never heard back about anything. Today, I received a phone call from the police department and the officer who we had met a year ago, asked if I had my ex's information. I told him he had relocated and gave him necessary information to contact my ex. Apparently a couple things that had been stolen had been recently recovered and the case was re-opened because there is now a suspect. SO, I thought about the situation for a moment and proceeded to text the ex because the officer would be calling him and the call needed to be accepted. The text went something like this "Hello, just FYI, the sherrif's department called and they found a suspect from when your house was robbed. The officer wanted your information so please expect a phone call from this area code".
I wasn't rude. I wasn't out of the way. I stated the purpose for the text, NOTHING ELSE. Fast forward, a couple hours later and NO RESPONSE. Really, I shouldn't be surprised. I shouldn't even be mildly irritated. But I am. Irritated I mean. Here's the thing. You are 37 years old. THIRTY-SEVEN. And you're acting like a 5 year old. This is a situation that I'd really like to think would warrant some kind of civil behavior that an adult would have. Perhaps the text didn't go through, I thought? Okay...let's see..."I'm not trying to start a dialogue but I'd like to know that you received my previous text on the grounds that I know it's an important issue. Yes, someone knows I'm texting you so I'm not trying to argue or cause drama because I'm finally starting to heal physically and emotionally. Thank you". And...cue, no answer. Okay. It's cool, I'm letting it go right after I roll my eyes so hard they may get stuck in the back of my head. So, here's the conclusion I come to when you play games like this. 1) You're childish. 2) You're selfish (yes, SELFISH. More than one person has said it even prior to all this crap). 3) You're just an ass.
I don't even mean that jokingly. I mean an actual jerk with absolutely no ounce of respect in his body for anyone else. Ignoring someone is so disrespectful that I can't even express how ignorant it is. But okay. You know what....I TRIED (sound familiar?).
My point in all of this is that you never really KNOW someone. We think we know...we think we can spend years with a person and learn their secrets and their deepest skeletons...they can easily prove that they have hidden things about themselves that will even blow us away. The girl my ex was dating when he met me nailed it when she said "Watch out for him. He's married to his career, will never commit, and is selfish". Sweetheart, wherever you are, I should have listened and you owe me a big "I told you so" while I take you out for a drink. Cheers.
Things that made me happy today:
1) Waking up refreshed and ready to attack the day!
2) Talking to friends most of the day via text
3) A super delicious lunch
4) Learning that I can easily make wonton soup. LOL I've been wanting to try for ages
5) Being able to talk to my physical therapist about my head doctor appointment earlier this week and generally be happy about how it went
6) Puppy snuggles
7) Signing up for the 5K on Thanksgiving
Things that were irritating today:
1) Being taken off guard by the guy in the Army uniform in the car next to me
2) Not getting a return text from the ex
3) My sore throat
4) The COLD. It's so windy and just bone chilling freezing. I hate cold weather!
My horoscope was spot on for the day:
"A dramatic change in your life may not make a whole lot of sense to you. You may wonder how you got here. You may think that you can't endure the fact that a certain chapter has closed. Not only are you casting negative energy toward this change, you aren't giving it a chance to show you how wonderful it could be. Don't resist a change you can't undo. Don't look at it as a negative change. You are in a period of transition and it can be wonderfully transformational if you allow it be".
^^ Roger that! I'm ready for a change and I see things like this: The universe has in store for us what will be, whether we like it or not. Whether or not I broke up with my ex, he would have met the "friend" he's with now. So it's probably better that he met her when we were apart because otherwise, I can see a whole unopened can of drama if we were together & he met her. Time to move up and on but I honestly hope that she sees who he is before she gets hurt too because he still isn't over the hurt his ex wife caused him & this girl is possibly a rebound like I was.
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