It's still pretty early. Not quite 5pm yet. I went and saw the new Hunger Games movie today with my cousin & some of her friends. Let me tell you, it's GREAT. I loved the books and I've really enjoyed all of the movies. I think that pretty much all the characters have been portrayed extremely well and the actors that were chosen, spot on.
The movie got me thinking, everyday we all fight some kind of fight within us. Maybe we are trying to stand up and start a revolution for ourselves so that we can have some kind of new, fresh start and don't have to keep living with the same thing over and over. Maybe that fight includes others in our lives and maybe it doesn't. For me, I'm trying to start new and get back to a place where I'm fine with being by myself. 2 years ago, I was there. I'd been engaged, I'd had a rebound relationship, and then for 7 months after that, I was happy being by myself and going about my daily life. I'd like to think that the relationship I just got out of and the way my ex is currently acting toward me can be the fire for the revolution of a new me. That I will come out stronger and happier in the end and be able to be thankful for him being in my life. Right now, I still have a lot of anger toward him for ignoring me the way that he has. It's sad per se because I know that if he texted me right now and needed me, I'd answer instead of just ignore him. I greatly believe in nature that there's a balance to things and if you hurt someone purposefully or try to impose your will on them, it will come back on you. I suppose that karma works in both directions and both of us will reap some kind of negative outcome for the way that we have handled certain things in this break up. But, in the end, I look forward to learning lessons and being a stronger person. I'm not sure that I'll ever know WHY I have to go through all of this or WHY my ex was in my life because him not being there leaves a bigger hole than I want to accept. But again, in the end, lessons will be learned.
Today, was an overall good day. Still didn't get much rest from this stuffy nose last night but being able to have lunch with my best friend and spend some time with her makes up for all that. Plus, I saw some really good movie previews that I'm looking forward to! Pitch Perfect 2 namely. I love Anna Kendrick and I've seen the first movie a ton of times. Also saw the movie board for 50 Shades of Grey so....YES. :) The only part of that I'm not looking forward to is the fact that it comes out on Valentine's Day and the day after would have been our official 2 year anniversary. So, I'm hoping to keep extra busy that day and make it a girls day!!!
So, cleaning up the house & laundry are calling my name unfortunately but I'll leave you with this quote from the new HG Movie that stuck with me. Finnick & Katniss are talking about surviving with nightmares and not finding any kind of relief when they wake up because the ones they love are still out there:
"BETTER NOT GIVE IN TO IT. IT TAKES TEN TIMES AS LONG TO PUT YOURSELF TOGETHER AS IT DOES TO FALL APART".
Things that made me happy today:
1) Being able to get up and moving without any real kind of sadness dragging me back down
2) Seeing my cousin, eating a great lunch, & watching a movie
3) Playing tennis with my daughter in the yard
4) Wearing a gorgeous outfit that I wanted to wear today & not having to worry about a voice saying "What are you WEARING?!" "What did you do to your hair?!"
Things irritating me today:
1) The fact that I keep wondering what my ex is doing. It's football day & his team is playing so I keep wondering if he's with HER watching the game or something. BOOOOOO.
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